top 'o the mornin to ya.

i started a new and improved journal. you can find me at ___and_so_it_is for all of your stacy goodness.

i wont be writing in this on. so for now, adios mis amigos.

im watching how high and its 4:20. anyone else see the irony?

i <3 yoga.

so whats new with me you ask? ill tell ya.

my life has gone to shit. the girl that has always got it together no longer has. as of friday night, pat and i are 'on a break'. that was the beginning. i am nothing short of heartbroken and confused by it all. im just hoping that he figures out whatever it is that he needs to. on top of that my mom called me and told me that i had to come home this weekend cuz its their last weekend in michigan. what a way to start my fucking semester. im trying to be as strong as i possibly can right now but its really not that easy. i feel like i have absolutely no control over anything thats going on and i hate it.

i would like to say a huge thank you to everyone thats been there for me lately. you really have no idea how much it means to me.

class starts again tomorrow. i have to do better than last semester. i say this every year but i think its finally time i do something about it.

i called my brother today. he was sitting out by the pool. bastard.

on a brighter note... ive got nothing. im a bad country song waiting to happen. all i need now is for my pickup to break down and my dog to bite me. i now know why people turn emo.

my brother got a job! im so happy for him.

its rose bowl time, and since im a sparty fan i have to say go texas!


new years eve: fun, but nothing to write home about. i got to see some people that i dont get to see very often (dont you hate when your friends graduate?) which is always cool. i also invented a drink i like to call the pink taco. its even parts pineapple rum and clear rum, mixed with pink lemonade. after about two drinks its so sour that switching to beer is a must. at least its a good starter drink. amanda and i made mac n cheese with water and suprisingly it tasted really good. then again, drunk munchies are killer and i could have eaten garbage and thought it tasted like filet mingon.

its good to be back home but now i have so much free time that i dont know what to do with myself. i know some of you are thinking, use your free time to drink. unfortunately i dont have any spare cash to do so.

until the next time.

i would like to thank best buy for making my day. they supplied me with:

*garden state i still havent seen it, but now i shall watch it daily.

*damo's b sides the demo of volcano from '97 is pretty funny. im glad he got better

last but not least

*frou frou thats my kind of music. very cool.

all in all it was money well spent.

justin left for florida today. i took it better than i thought i would, but it still sucks. one down, two to go and im flying solo here in the mitten.

back to mt. pizzle on friday!

today was nice. its good to know that old friends are never too far away, no matter how long its been.

im freakin out. seriously.

screw dr. baugh. screw civil rights. screw my d-.

this may also be found in nateasa

JudyTheFlamingo: we should start a band. i would call it, with his permission, the tony danza extravaganza
JudyTheFlamingo: exactly
nateasamcguire: Yeah i mean... how would he not totally say yes to that?
JudyTheFlamingo: thats something youd have to have a 20 piece symphony orchestra for
nateasamcguire: most definitely haha.... i mean when you add extravaganza to the end of anything it has to be ridiculous
JudyTheFlamingo: for real. with guys being shot out of cannons and lots of vanilla iced cream
nateasamcguire: i am pictureing feathers faling from the ceiling...... CONSTANTLY. none of this one time excitement and we will never have an end.. .people will just leave when they please
JudyTheFlamingo: we will so put the nick and jessica abc special to shame
JudyTheFlamingo: we will have more cheese than velveeta
nateasamcguire: i am seeing those as being our reviews in rolling stone... i can picture it right now.
JudyTheFlamingo: can we have mo rocca from the various vh1 specials comment on our success on 'best week ever'
JudyTheFlamingo: but alas, would it make it the best week for us or for tony danza
nateasamcguire: Most definitely. I wonder if Michael Ian Black could be a our personal promo guy.... that would be absolteuly heavenly.
JudyTheFlamingo: oh yes!
JudyTheFlamingo: conan can make guest appearances on the covers of our cds
nateasamcguire: THAN THAN we will have Chuck P write our biographies..
nateasamcguire: haha... yes!
JudyTheFlamingo: oh snap

i must say that this is the most i have posted in a short period of time. but now, on to bigger and better things. i was scrolling through the late night talk shows to see if there were any interesting guests on tonight. seeing as that it was already 12:15am the good shows were getting ready to go off. i decide on a whim to check out the late late show because i thought that craig kilborn was still doing. to my dismay he was not, but alas, my favorite irish singer-songwriter (damien rice) was appearing as the musical guest. i patiently wait the 20 minutes for the show to come on by taking a timewarp back to the days of 'whos the boss?'. man, that is a good show. *sidebar: i still want a shirt with tony danza on it.* so its finally time for the show to come on and i was initially disappointed. whoever the host for the late late show is quite possibly the least funny man ive ever seen. his timing was off, he started many jokes/stories/sentences with 'uhh',he was not any good, and during this segment to not grant peoples christmas wishes he just ended up sounding insulting. i was not a fan. i like to think that im a funny girl and though im not exactly a comedienne,im pretty sure this guy sucked ass. the show did however redeem itself every time it cut to commercial and when i found out its other two guests were <3topher grace<3 and maya rudolph (the chick that reminds me of elmore) from snl. all in all it turned out to be a good show.
it seems like this is the millionth entry ive written about how much i love mr. rice, but i seriously cant get enough of him. i dont know what it is either. theres just something in his voice. he can surface so many different emotions in his music and that is something that i think isnt done enough. its a truly beautiful thing. the woman that sings along side of him, lisa hannigan, has one of the most unique voices. its very pure and rough. i wish she did some solo work. ok, im done. i know nothing about music except for what i like and what i dont. what i would like is for someone to buy me the b sides cd from damien rice. i would even be as kind as to burn a copy for the purchaser :)

home is getting boring but i dont want to do anything. im sick of the driving already.

pablo and i accidentally found a pretty hip place last night. its gus o'connors on main st in novi. we went not knowing what it was all about, and that it was the only place open, but it turns out to be a pretty nice irish pub. they dont even have miller light on draft so it makes it classy in my book. i have a new love for bells white. i never thought beer and a lemon would compliment each other but they do. we want to go back on thursday night (they have live accoustic music and drink specials so it could be cool). if youre 21 or have a fake, and in the area you should come out with us. it should be a good time.


on a happy note, i went to the dentist and i have no cavities! BUT now i have to use this nasty flouride rinse once a day. or i could not drink pop and eat any sugar....right. stupid mount pleasant voting to remove flouride from their water. just because townies dont have teeth to take care of doesnt mean that other people dont.

i have found my ultimate celebrity crush. hes tall, hes thin, hes awkward, hes goofy, hes nerdy. im infatuated. hes no brad pitt or colin ferrell but it works for me. i <3 topher grace.

Date:	2004-12-17 12:28
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	thoughtful
Music:	fiona apple

well kids, the semester of shit is over. this was by far my worst semester. my grades werent exactly horrible, but they were much worse than i would have liked. i think the reason this was such a bad semester is because i actually tried for once and it didnt make much of a difference. i did however get one of my finals back already and i got an 88% which gave me a B+ in the class.

i went to sell my books back yesterday. that was a waste of my time. i had 4 books to sell back and i wasnt even going to get $20 so i kept them. i guess i can always try again next semester.

next semester is going to be weird. it seems as if so many people are leaving. now that i am older my friends are all growing up and moving on. its kind of depressing to me because im not there yet. ive still got at least 2 years left. by this time next year i will have had to say goodbye to 90% of my closest friends and ill still be here. pats still going to be here by most of my support system will be gone. at least ill be here when teasa finally turns 21. ha.

im going home today for most of break. im excited and im not. im excited to see old friends and family. im not excited because i have to say good bye to justin and get some time in with the 'rents before they move. i dont really know what to think about all of this still. all i know how to do is to get mad and then cry. im happy that my dad got promoted and that my brother is starting over, but im so mad that they are leaving me. its very childish and selfish of me but thats all i know how to feel. i dont know if im ready for the responsibility of being completely on my own.

will the following people please call me so we can hang out sometime over break:
~jamie
~julie
~katie j
~kelly m
~reed
~strat
~oley

time to pack.

Date:	2004-12-15 08:03
Subject:	life lessons
Security:	Public
Mood:	complete physical shutdown

after tonight i think i have truly learned the downside to procrastination.

i just spent 8 hours at kaya minus some time to eat. its 8am, and i have one more test to study for.

listservs annoy me. period.

Date:	2004-12-09 01:43
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	exhausted

today was my last day of class for the semester. i started it off well by skipping civil rights. ive been quite the busy bee besides that tho. in the last 2 days ive: worked out, eye doctor appt, gotten paid, done some banking, christmas shopped, shopped for myself, worked, started and finished my board for 291, class, greek awards, and probably something else that i cant remember. thats more than i do in a given month usually. ive got many more things to add to my list aftert tomorrow and friday. finals week should be a nice break after all of this. its so nice feeling accomplished though.

i hung out over at the phi tau house tonight. drunk tyler is fun tyler. i miss it over there. i dont really know why i dont hang out as much as i used to. i guess for a while it seemed to have gotten old, that it always seemed to be the same thing over and over, but those guys are like my family. they have taken care of me all four years here. i think that i am going to make a point to get back to that next semester.

g'nite

damien rice was just on leno and it was delightful. also, i want to see the movie kinsey.

Date:	2004-12-01 03:40
Subject:	its super survey time! ok, so its really 4am and i have nothing better to do.
Security:	Public
Mood:	spunky
Music:	frou frou

LAYER ONE: On The Outside
- Name: stacy
- Nickname: stace, p, honkey
- Birth date: April 26, 1983
- Birthplace: dearborn, mi
- Current Location: mt. pleasant
- Eye Color: Blue
- Hair Color: brrrrown
- Height: 5'7"
- Righty or Lefty: Righty
- Zodiac Sign: bull

LAYER TWO: On The Inside
- Your heritage: pretty much everything western european minus spanish and potuguese, and hick
- The shoes you wore today: i rocked the grey NBs
- Who you look like: exactly like my mother and her mother and probably the mother before that
- Your weakness: a good porn. and taco bell. and shopping. and hookers. and shiny things.
- Your fears: heights, spiders, flying
- Your perfect pizza: pineapple, green olives, tomatoes from howies
- Goal you'd like to achieve: to be a world traveler. i dont really give a shit if im never famous or rich or anything. as long as i make the most out of what i do, im happy.

LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
- Your most overused phrase on AIM: word
- Your thoughts first waking up: what day is it?
- Your best physical feature: my eyes
- Your bedtime: depends on a) if im sober or not b)what time i worked and c)what time i have to get up the next day
- Your most missed memory: mexico. i miss those damn ninos. and green cup. and la crepe. and la divina.

LAYER FOUR: Your Pick
- Pepsi or Coke: cola
- McDonalds or Burger King: taco bell
- Adidas or Nike: new balance
- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
- Cappuccino or coffee: cafe con crema y azucar

LAYER FIVE: Do You?
- Smoke: *cough cough*
- Cuss: like a trucker
- Sing: its not something that should be heard
- Have a crush: i'm not allowed. lol.
- Think you've been in love: i am right now
- Like high school: yes! junior year wasnt the best, but i made the most of those four years
- Want to get married: Yes
- Believe in yourself: sometimes
- Get motion sickness: only on carnie rides
- Think you're attractive: i vainly stare in the mirror all day. er...
- Think you're a health freak: thats a good one.
- Get along with your parents: as long as i dont spend long periods of time with them
- Like thunderstorms: yes and no
- Play an instrument: no

LAYER SIX: In the past month...
- Drank alcohol: yes
- Smoked: yeah
- Done a drug: my dislike of greens was reaffirmed
- Gone to the mall: yep
- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no, but i helped teasa
- Eaten sushi: no
- Been on stage: when was the derby queen pageant?
- Gone skating: no
- Gone skinny dipping: no
- Dyed your hair: yup
- Stolen anything: yes

LAYER SEVEN: Ever..
- Played a game that required removal of clothing: yep
- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: waking up in pile of one's vomit without pants on drunk
- Been caught "doing something": no
- Been called a tease: yep
- Gotten beaten up: not yet
- Shoplifted: no

LAYER EIGHT: Getting Older
- Age you hope to be married: by the age of 30
- Numbers and Names of Children: joseph simons IV? (does it still count if it skips a generation?, emma elisabeth, leticia maria (if pat lets me use a mexican name) lillian ray, maybe more maybe less
- Describe your dream wedding: beach, lake michigan, charlevoix, sunset, no shoes, open bar
- How do you want to die: if i was to be murdered i wouldnt mind being shot with a sawed off
- What do you want to be when you grow up: sex therapist/marriage and family therapist,birth control activist
- What country would you most like to visit? mexico. may 8th!

LAYER NINE: In a partner
- Best eye color: whatev
- Hair color: not red
- Short or long hair: depends
- Height: 6 and up
- weight: i tend to like em skinny
- Best articles of clothing: im not picky, i dont have a type

LAYER TEN: In The Numbers...
- Number of people I could trust with my life: enough.
- Number of CDs that I own: ??? 20ish
- Number of piercing: just one in each ear
- Number of tattoos: 2 all of em stars
- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: i FINALLY got my name in CM life and they spelled my name wrong
- Number of things in my past that I regret: whats the point of regret. it must have happened for a reason, even if it was only at the time.